This particular excerpt is to do almost entirely with coming to terms with the choices I made in a specific time in my life, but although not included, also has to do with the impact that those choices may have had on my life today.
I'm speaking of my time in High School. First of all you probably already know what a colossal epic fail it all was, and how I've dealt with it thus far; but if you've read this far I'll ask you to read on, for this is quite different from those previous opinions.
Reasoning Number 1 : I should have gone to a different High School. I'm in no way blaming the teachers, or former fellow students (or placing blame anywhere other than squarely on my own shoulders.)
I feel the way I learn, and have always learnt, never fit with the way I was taught there. It was an academic school and I learn better visually and tactilely. Nothing wrong with either.
Reasoning Number 2 : I should have tried harder. While I was given a very, very long leash to do my assignments (and even had assignments I simply didn't want to do over looked) I quite simply can't sweep away the fact that I was pretentious and presumptuous child who thought he deserved more credit that what the assignments reflected.
Reasoning Number 3 : I should have gone to my graduation. I'm sure many of you would agree with the previous two more than this one, but I have always had my heart strings pulled when I think on or see something that truly embodies the pride of accomplishment, and the applause that's given after completion.
I won't deny it took me approximately seven years to complete High School- but I'll also make the point that it's all the more reason to want that, and that it has since left a large gaping hole in the character that I put forth in everything I do.
Three simple points that, overall, once again was longer than anticipated. . .
Iaminyourveins!
G-nome
1 comment:
Well, personally, I'm glad you went to the high school you did . Honestly, though the West was a tough school and I can see why you might have done better in a different environment.
About graduation, I could definitely see why that would be a regret. I moaned about it at the time, but my high school graduation is a great memory. Being there with my folks, feeling their pride... It was pretty special.
Post a Comment